Life update

I have really grown into myself this year. I am becoming more comfortable with who I am and have learned a lot about the world. 

I am now in my second year of college, which sounds so weird to say. I changed my major in April from computer science to biology and it's been going well. It's a lot of work though I must admit. And let's just say, I am not the best with time management and keeping on track with all the due dates. 

I want to say I like college. But I also don't. I like that I am able to study what I want and I like my professors, but I don't really like how I feel like I am an imposter to all my classmates. It's hard to make friends but, as I have become more comfortable with myself over the year, I am fine with that. I am fine with not having many friends. I feel more focused and more at ease. 

But, with the friends I have made. I feel even better than I do when I am by myself. I feel seen, I feel heard, and I feel enlivened. They enable me to be... me. I am very grateful for them, alhamdulillah. 

Regrets of the year:

1. Not getting my license yet.

2. Taking a math class in the summer. 

3. Not including relaxing as a part of my schedule. 

4. Not reading as much as I wish I could.

5. Not changing my major sooner.

6. Not believing in myself just because of one grade. 

Happys of the year:

1. Spring semester chemistry and english class. 

2. Baked a lot. 

3. Finally got the hand of switching colors as I crochet. 

4. Going out with friends, making new friends.

5. Praying tahajud.

6. Learning to love others. 

7. Focusing more on Allah ﷻ.

Goals for the remainder of the year:

1. You guessed it.. getting my license. 

2. Visiting a museum. 

3. Writing and sending a letter to someone in my family.

4. Finishing a crochet project. 

5. Reading at least 10 more books.

    ⤷ I don't intend to quantify my goals, this is just a numerical representation of how many more "lives" I want to live by the end of this year. Perhaps I should type up a list. 

6. Learn a new language, or at least start exposing myself to one. 

    ⤷ For a while I wanted to learn Farsi and attended Jummah lectures at a masjid that partially delivered the lectures in Farsi. Attending Jummah there used to be the highlight of my weeks. 

7. Cook a full meal for my family & share with neighbors.

8. Travel out of state... 🙈

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